You know, I really wanted to write something motivational for Easter. Most of Easter weekend has been great for me, and I am extremely grateful for what Jesus Christ has done for me. It’s an amazing thought to know just how much he would go through for the world.
But I’m finding it hard to find the right motivational words. I’m being faced with two very tough decisions for me, and I feel like I’m at the breaking point. So it’s hard to be happy and inspired when I’m in this much pain.
But isn’t that part of what Easter is about? How pain and suffering can lead to triumph? Did not Christ’s pain lead to the salvation of the world? Could not this pain lead to the triumph of me?
I don’t know entirely. I can’t see the future, and I don’t know where I’m going. But I do know that Christ did atone for me, and the entire world.
So, with that I do have two very important things to say.
1. I am in all likelihood not doing marching band anymore. I just don’t love it enough for it to be worth the pain.
2. I really do love all of my friends. You guys are some of the few people who have been able to care for me. But… you guys don’t have the same morals as me. Which is fine, except that it’s getting harder and harder for me to feel comfortable around you guys. So, for the sake of my own sanity, I might be a little distant.